Dawnneptune, 52

Sometimes I question God as to my relationship status. The heart desires someone to share my life with. I have so much inside of me that I want to give, but finding that person who is committed and faithful, and non abusive has been a difficult challenge for me. To be honest, I have asked God to remove the desire from my heart so there is not an empty spot inside, but he has not. For what ever reason that may be, I accept he has purpose for my life. Perhaps its there to inspire music that I write. Or maybe there is someone out there He is leading me to.

Because I cant describe my own personality correctly, I have asked my family and closest friends. Free spirited, organized with a bit of spontaneous tendency. Selfless giver, honest regardless if its what you want to hear. Loyal, confident, spiritual, outspoken, independent. Passionate and determined, strong willed about my beliefs, disciplined. I have been told when I feel pressure I internalize and come across as standoffish. I have one peeve that sets me in defensive protective mode. Controlling, abusive, manipulative people who are stronger and use it against those that are weaker. The people who please me are the most are honest at all cost. Being who you are, raw and unedited version of you, not fake and hidden behind guilt, fears and shame causing us to protect our projected failures. We are who we are, and that comes with baggage. After all we are not perfect and its pleasing to know that oneself acknowledges that.