Blain, 34

I am a new christian, but i seek a relationship with god where his love and my love for each other will overflow into the universe. I always speak what is in my heart. I am disabled, I have brain damage from my parents and cancer. so i am unable to drive or have a job, I have no money and because of the cancer i look like a fifteen year old. I do not have a camera or any way to show what i look like as far as i know. But i spend all my time getting close to god, I have relied on god to deal with my love life, normally no girl in their right minds would date me because of all these issues I believe she is out there. If i were to find that special someone God would be the most important thing to us, I am a virgin, never had my real first kiss and i will not do that tongue thing it's gross. I want someone who i think is beautiful no matter what anyone thinks, I care for others and i love helping people and am willing to die for anyone. I am timid until i really get to know someone and i some kid stuff like pokemon but i love god much more. I have dreams and desire for god that may seem impossible to many but i see it as more reason to put my faith in him and go for it. I do not like sassy and hyper girls only because i have lived with my sister my whole life. I live with my mom because of my issues and cannot do what many other people can. I am looking for a caring and gentle girl whom i can talk to without being judged. I want to go and help the needs of others with her, and do all sorts of things that would please god. I realize this is asking a lot but this is my dream girl.