Angelboo21583, 42

im a God loving stay at home mom that is a cat mom to 2 cats that are sisters from the same momma cat. im looking for a man that i can take my time and talk to before meeting. i dont want a man to push my buttons and rush me. i have mental health and i have trauma. i am depression free for 2 years. i have PTSD and anxiety disorder. ive been abused, yelled at by a older man multiple times, taken advantage of my body, my money and my disability. im not a people person i dont like loud rap music it sets me off and makes my insides go crazy. im a country music fan i listen to the big 98 in nashville tennessee. im a live host on tiktok and epic studios. im just starting out i been a tiktok live host for almost 60 days and its still going slow i just started epic i had to get 50 followers to go live so now my next goal is 1kayyy followers to join the creators program on epic. my big tiktok goal is to get to 10kayyy so i can join the creators program on tiktok. i have a live schedule everyday and i journal and work on my laptop at the same time. im a cig smoker im a chain smoker. smoking is my backbone to my mental health it keeps me grounded. also another thing that keeps me grounded is country music it keeps the anxiety away. i cried when i heard on the radio that toby died 2 years ago. i also had a friend that had stomach cancer and lost her battle of 5 years. ive been through a lot of death and had a lot of grief mixed with depression over the years. i met granger smith and he gave me a powerful Holy Ghost prayer that lifted my feet off the floor i was standing on. in 2024 was the first year i didnt feel the pain of grief on my parents anniversary of death and birthdays.